Restless

I have been sitting at home for the past, oh....three or four hours, relaxing, reading, veggin out. You know, the usual. And now the inevitable time has come for me to grow restless and antsy, while being slightly sleepy at the same time. This is the usually the reason why I have a hard time falling asleep when I have too much time on my hands. It's a shame that I have to be this way tonight, considering Rowan is coming over in the morning and I want to get up extra early to see him before I have to head to work.

Oh, cursed work. I honestly thought taking a four-month hiatus from serving would allow me to develop some sort of new appreciation or nostalgic feelings towards my old job. Sadly, that is not the case. It's a strange feeling, serving. Every new table I go to (unless they are surprisingly very polite and gracious) I secretly despise and am jealous of. I want to be the one going out to lunch or dinner and visiting with my friends/family. The hilarious thing is that sometimes the tables I hate the most are the ones that turn out to be the nicest at the end of the dinner/lunch. I smile my fake smile that you take as "wow, that girl really LOVES her job" when in reality I am really thinking "give me your money". I am quite the deceiver. Mwah haha. And these hidden dark thoughts I so slyly think are the only things that get my through each wretched shift. Pretty messed up, right?

Man, I just reread that paragraph and I am a little shocked. Partly because of how true it is and partly because of how bitter I have become.

Changing the subject....

Today I went to lunch with some friends I have had since junior high and high school. Emily, Rachel, Breezy, Marissa, Julie, and I all went to Red Robin (gross) and it was really fun. We gossiped just as young ladies should do and oo'ed and ahh'ed over Breezy's new eyebrow piercing and Rachel's peace sign tattoo. We laughed about how we are all getting tatted up and pieced! Facial piercings are always fun.

It made me really miss high school. Well, maybe not high school, but more of the social atmosphere it provided. I have never been a person with a ton of friends or anything, but since graduating I have definitely missed all the people I hung out with, especially the ones at the Rad Pad. I hope we all come back together after we graduate college and reminisce about old times.

Ope, I think I'm starting to feel sleepier!! Maybe sleep will finally come!

Til next time,

Becca